If you watched this great series (True Detective) then I’m sure that you will have been affected by some of the nihilistic views, extolled by Rust to Marty. It painted a picture of the world with no hope of redemption. Riveting viewing but hard on the soul. This was a man in real pain about the loss of his daughter and subsequently the destruction of his marriage.
After a near death experience, in the finally, he does produce one of the best speeches from the whole series. A beacon of light in his dark world.
There was a moment, I know, when I was under in the dark, that something… whatever I’d been reduced to, not even consciousness, just a vague awareness in the dark. I could feel my definitions fading. And beneath that darkness there was another kind—it was deeper—form, like a substance. I could feel man, I knew, I knew my daughter waited for me, there. So clear. I could feel her. I could feel…I could feel the peace of my Pop, too. It was like I was part of everything that I have ever loved, and we were all, the three of us, just fading out. And all I had to do was let go, man. And I did. I said, ‘Darkness, yeah.’ and I disappeared. But I could still feel her love there…even more than before. Nothing…nothing but that love. And then I woke up.”
I was fortunate enough to have a similar vision in a dream where a bed of snakes parted and I passed through to a loving darkness, that The show writer has described far better than I ever could. I knew that I had to leave that place immediately because if I had stayed any longer I wouldn’t have wanted to come back, such was the feeling of peace and love that surrounded me there. I’m not in a hurry to leave this life, this gift that I have been given, but I know that when I do that there is a loving resting place awaiting me. What I do know is that I now have no fear of death.